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A Long and Terrifying Silence

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It’s been over a month since my last post here. It’s been only a little less time since I put any serious time into writing. And yet I think about it every day, multiple times a day. I’m not exactly sure why I stopped writing. I know part of it was being tired. I was tired of the daily posts, status updates, and whatnot. I live with a strange dichotomy within myself in that part of me desperately wants and needs to express myself either through my writing or some other creative means, and an almost equal part of me wants to keep my thoughts and feelings to myself. This is something I have always struggled with. At least I think so. It certainly feels that way.

I’ve got just over 30k words for my NaNo novel. And I’m just kind of stuck. Not because I don’t know what happens next. I do. I’ve been thinking about that a whole lot during this extended break. I’m not sure why I haven’t sat down to keep going then. I know I really don’t like the current scene. It feels off for some reason. I’m tempted to skip ahead and write another part then eventually fill in the missing stuff. Thing is I’ve written both of my full length novels sequentially. I’m not sure how jumping around will turn out for me. But maybe it’s time to give it a shot.

 

Regardless, this kind of lull in my writing has been pretty scary. I question myself daily whether or not I really have the drive and ability to make this my living. There’s no question it’s going to be a long, slow road to even moderate success. Still, this is the hardest I’ve ever been hit by the doubt demons. Here’s hoping I can power through.

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The National Novel Writing Month 2014 Kickoff

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The Madison, WI NaNoWriMo group met last night/this morning at a local restaurant to kickoff the 2014 National Novel Writing Month. I was surprised at just how many folks showed up. At my last count we topped out at 14 or 15 people. I may have missed some folks since I was tunnel visioned into my Nano novel though. We started at just after midnight. I have to say it was pretty awesome to write with a bunch of other folks. The closest I’ve come to that experience in the past was just writing assignments in class. Definitely not the same kind of energy. This was much better.

For myself I managed to finish the prologue for my new novel: Avatars & Identity. It takes place in the same shrouded world universe as Stephen’s trilogy but involves completely different characters and some very scifi elements. I’m not completely satisfied with the prologue as it stands but I’m feeling pretty good about this whole thing overall. Having all of these other people participating in the event is very motivating.

Now though it’s time to try and get a bit of sleep before heading back out later today for the MadNaNo launch party. Hopefully we’ll have a better chance to meeet and greet as well as discuss all things writing. I’ve been itching to get other folks’ opinions on various writing matters and this is the ideal opportunity. Also hoping we get the whole writing buddy thing set up for this month. I think it would be helpful for everyone if we had at least one other person to chat with about this on a regular basis.

Last but not least, I will be doing live writing for this novel almost every day using Google Hangouts. It will be open to the public if anyone is interested. I plan to do the first live session on Sunday. If you miss one, don’t worry. I will be doing this as much as possible. The videos will also be automatically uploaded to my YouTube channel so you can always check them out there.

Now, off to dream land! Hopefully.

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Going With Your Gut a.k.a. The Secret to Writing

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In Short:

To sum it up in case you don’t feel like reading through all of this the secret boils down to one thing: find what works for you. It’s that simple. Which isn’t simple at all because it will likely take a lot of trial and error. I’ve been at it for over a year now and I’m still learning what the best practices are for me. So have patience and keep trying different things until you find a combo that works. Now, on with the show!

In the Beginning:

When I first decided to really make a go at being a writer I spent a whole lot of time doing research on how other writers did their thing. I was looking for a secret or a trick. I wanted to believe there was such a thing. I was pretty disappointed when most authors who shared their processes all said the same thing: there is no trick. No secret. Once I realized that I decided to instead concentrate on the specifics of other writers’ methods and try them out for myself.

Where to Write:

I’d seen plenty of people typing away in coffee shops, restaurants, etc., so I tried those out. They were usually too noisy. I could maybe get ten good minutes of writing before something broke my concentration, and this was while listening to my own music through my ear buds. I tried a library; the seats sucked and people were surprisingly talkative in the quiet section. So the library was a bust. I tried to think of other places I could go but each one was either too public and noisy or didn’t have anywhere to really sit down and type. In the end I wrote my first book sitting on my bed in the tiny room I was renting. It wasn’t ideal because all of my video games, books, and such were right there ready to distract me from my task. I could also only stand sitting on my bed for about a half hour before my legs and butt started going numb. I managed though.

I’ve come to realize that I can write almost anywhere, but my concentration and writing quality will suffer in places with too much noise or distraction. I’ve done writing on planes, in the hospital, at the mechanic, you name it. The real trick when it comes to figuring out where to write is finding a place that is comfortable enough to sit for thirty to sixty minutes and also be able to concentrate for that long. So not really a trick at all. Disappointing I know but still the truth.

How to Write:

This is a biggie and probably more complicated than finding the right spot. The trick to becoming a writer, and this is based on my experience and opinion, is to stick with it long enough to learn how you write best. You can do all of the research, read about every author under the sun and how they do their thing and none of it will help you unless you try all of those methods out. You can buy fancy programs that help you storyboard your ideas, organize your characters, build family trees, and come up with more background than you can shake a stick at. That still won’t get your book or story done. And that’s really the secret. Much like Po learned in Kung Fu Panda, there is no secret ingredient. There’s just you. The writer. You have to sit down and face that blank page or empty document. I was terrified when I realized this. No one could help me write the story in my head. I had all the responsibility for putting my thoughts and ideas down in words. Super scary. Still, there is hope.

There’s another side to this coin, just like there’s two sides to every story. (At least two sides anyway.) So sure, the buck stops with you and nothing will happen unless you do something about it. The flip side is, there’s no wrong way to do it! Probably the most glorious thing about being a writer is the freedom. Good, bad, or ugly, who cares?! You can write whatever you want, however you want to write it. Have some crazy idea to write an erotic thriller about space unicorns who have come to harvest our ear wax? Go for it! (Actually, that sounds pretty hilarious. I might have to play with that one… Ahem, yes well you get the idea.)

When I was a kid I spent hours drawing pictures with my friends and my sister. We would draw whatever came to mind and tell a story about the picture at the same time. We lived in our imagination. Before I started writing I really thought that my creativity was gone. Nothing more than a childhood memory. I was wrong though. I wasn’t gone, it was just rusty and stiff from disuse. I’d let life and adult responsibility crush my imagination for so long that it was a great effort to let it free. It’s still not as easy as I’d like it to be but every time I sit down and write it gets a little easier. So keep at it. Don’t worry about how good your writing is. It will get better and easier the more you practice. Patience and persistence pays off in spades in this line of work.

Keep on Learning (and Reading):

My only other bit of advice is to keep learning about writing and publishing. Self-publishing is definitely a great route to go if getting the attention of traditional publishers is too intimidating or fruitless. A lot of big-name authors are actually going that route because of the full creative freedom and much, much better royalties. Dean Wesley Smith has a metric butt-ton of info on self-publishing and I highly recommend checking his site out (www.deanwesleysmith.com). Also read. Read whatever you want to. Re-read books you loved and see how the experience is from the perspective of a writer. I’m re-reading the entire Anite Blake series by Laurell K. Hamilton and I’m noticing a whole lot about her writing style. Not to mention the formatting choices for the book itself. I think it’s important to immerse yourself in books and the writing culture as much as you can. At least as much as your favorite hobby. Writing takes serious effort but it is also seriously rewarding. Anyway, those are just a few of my thoughts on it. Good night and good luck!

 

National Novel Writing Month is just around the corner! Sign up now and get inspired to write: www.nanowrimo.org

 

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So. Much. Change.

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It’s been a little bit since my last post but I haven’t been idle. Where to begin?

 

The Home Front:

Probably the best news is that my sister has started her chemo treatments and so far that is going well. I know the whole experience has been pretty awful for her but I also know we’re all feeling a little better about the whole situation. The tumor in her neck is already noticeably smaller just three treatments in. Definitely a good sign. We’re not out of the woods yet but the horrible sense of loss and depression have receded. I will be joining her on her next treatment so I’ll get a chance to see firsthand how it is.

As far as the school stuff goes I did manage to get all of the required items to the school just under the wire. I didn’t really think that was going to happen since I was waiting for one transcript that took three months the last time I ordered it. I ordered the new one as soon as we finished moving to Madison but that left less than two months. Surprisingly though it arrived just in time and now I await the school’s decision. I’ll probably be coming in as a junior so that will be nice. I might have one or two lame general requirements left but that’ll be it. I should be able to concentrate on my English – Creative Writing major. I’m actually really excited to have the chance to go back to college full-time. I never thought I’d have another chance when I dropped out back in ’99. I’ll definitely be one of the oldest students in my classes but I don’t mind that. It’ll be fun watching all of the kids run around doing their thing. Here’s hoping I get in next semester.

This Year So Far:

In other news I’ve invested a great deal of time and effort into my writing career over the past month. The print edition of Induction was finalized and is available on Amazon. This is crazy exciting for me. Despite growing up with a just-blossoming Internet I guess I still have a pretty strong connection to the physical world. So when I held a physical proof version of my first book, for the first time, it felt more special and real than when I published the e-book version back in February. I know at times I’m disappointed with my progress so far. I definitely had high hopes and set a very high bar for myself last year. I wanted to have this first trilogy done by December 2014 as well as at least 5 short stories, published individually and as a collection. For a long time it looked like that wasn’t going to happen. Between moving twice, applying to one college and getting in, then having to apply to another as well as the rough time my family and I have all been going through it’s been a crazy busy year. Actually, now that I think about it I guess the progress I have made so far is decent. Plus National Novel Writing Month will be here in just a couple of weeks. Topic change!

NaNoWriMo (Huh?):

National Novel Writing Month or NaNoWriMo (nanowrimo.org) is a yearly contest, sort of, to get people to write a 50k word novel in just one month. Specifically, in November. So people who participate have 30 days to finish the novel. Anyone who manages to finish within the 30 day period wins. It’s free to participate and there are a bunch of groups around the country, and probably in other countries, participating. I found out about it last year but I was already writing my first book and working a day job full-time. I wasn’t about to try a second novel when I wasn’t even sure I could finish the one I was working on. This year is different though. I am currently unemployed and writing full-time. College doesn’t start (as long as I’m accepted) until January and I will hopefully have a little income coming in from my writing in the near future. Enough to get by and still eat at any rate. Hopefully. Maybe.

Anyway, the point is I have the time and strong desire to participate this year. I’ve already signed up and am looking at getting with my local group here in Madison. They already have some tentative events planned and I’m very psyched to get the chance to meet other writers. I know writing is a solitary profession in many ways but just in my short time doing that I have already realized that my writing and my experience writing is better when I can share it with other people. That’s been limited to friends and family so far which means I’m very eager to talk and work with other writers to get their perspectives on writing, the writing life, and life in general.

As for what I will be writing next month, that is still undecided. I was hoping to get some feedback from my Patrons via Patreon regarding which of the ideas I’ve had so far they’d like to see, but that requires having Patrons. (More in the next section.) At this point I’ve got four ideas, two related to my Shrouded world, two not. The third book of the trilogy is out as a possibility because it won’t fit within any reasonable distance of 50k words. Both of the first books ran almost 100k and I’ve got plenty more story to cover. There is another Shrouded World book that’s been on the back burner for almost a year now and that definitely has possibilities. We shall see.

Patreon:

So Patreon is a thing now. I first stumbled across it when I was going through some artwork on an unrelated site. They mentioned I could support them through something called Patreon. I was curious at the time but had other things going on and forgot about it for a couple of weeks. Once I came back to it though I discovered that Patreon is basically ongoing crowd-funding for artists. The amounts pledged, either per month or per fixed unit of work completed, are much smaller than what you see on Kickstarter or Indiegogo. Most start at $1. Looking through the site I found some artists I already followed on YouTube. (Peter Hollins comes to mind immediately. Amazing a cappella music videos.) I loved the idea right then and there. Have someone creating something you love and enjoy? Give a buck a month or whatever and help them pay their bills and eat so they can focus on creating! I’m learning first-hand just how hard it is to concentrate on creating when you’re worried about paying for rent and food. So I decided to join in as well and started my own Patreon page.

It’s been up for less than a week and I don’t have any Patrons yet but I’m hopeful this will be the answer for transitioning from regular 9 to 5 jobs to writing full-time. I will say this though: I am far more motivated every day to keep writing, publishing, reading, researching, and learning. My main passions in life so far have been book and gaming. Now writing has usurped both of those as number one. Not something I could have predicted but it’s something I’m enjoying immensely. Whether or not I’m successful I am definitely enjoying the ride.

 

(EDIT)

So I spazzed out and completely forgot to include links for all of the stuff I’ve been working on. Here they are in no particular order:

Patreon (Seriously, this site is awesome. If I had the money there’s a bunch of artists I would already be supporting.): http://www.patreon.com

My Patreon Page: http://www.patreon.com/fuzzynerd

My new Tumblr blog where I post my free work: http://fuzzynerdcorner.tumblr.com/

I am now also on Twitter: http://twitter.com/FuzzyNerdCorner

National Novel Writing Month Site: http://nanowrimo.org

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Done and Done

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It’s been a couple of quiet weeks as far as posts here go. That was mostly due to being ill. Picked up a nasty little bacteria that took up residence in my sinuses and chest. It was a lot like a mild flu mixed with a head cold. Got the fever, cough, congestion, and sore throat combo going so that was a lot of fun. Probably could have cut my sick time in half with a little antibiotic love but that requires expensive doctor visits and medicine so no joy there. Future illnesses like this shouldn’t be a problem if the VA comes through though so here’s hoping on that front.

As far as writing goes I didn’t let a little thing like being sick stop me from writing. I certainly slowed down but I’m very happy to report that book 2 was finished early today. I was working on Chapter 21 when I realized I was just dragging out the story and could easily cut it at the end of Chapter 20 plus a short epilogue. So that’s what I did. My second novel ever clocks in at just over 92k words and took an unfortunate 5 months to write. Book 1 was 4k words longer and took 3 months all while I was working 40 hours a week. Funny how it’s been harder to write when I have so much more free time. Of course moving threw a big monkey wrench into my writing time/energy so there’s a good month lost to that. The real problem was making the time and space for it. For the first book I was in a lull as far as my gaming went so it was no big deal to devote an hour a night to getting some writing done. Still, done is done.

This second book was much harder to write for me. I think part of it was just the amount of world-building that went into this one. For the first book I could get away with vague references and hints until the big reveal at the end. Book two though is all about getting down and dirty with this new world. It’s a first for the protagonist, the reader, and me. 🙂  Fun fact: I used a short story that I wrote to build a lot of the details in book two. The short story takes place in the same world and focuses on a day in the life of a secret agency office worker. I ended up going through the short story again to jot down all of the details and filled an entire legal pad with notes. I will definitely be writing more of these kinds of stories to help flesh out my world. I think it takes the huge task of world-building and breaks it down into smaller, more manageable chunks. I’m actually itching to get going on another short story. It’s nice to know that I can start a project and get it done in a week or less. Finishing a novel feels great but the slog getting there can be rough.

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Of Endings and Loose Threads

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The past couple of days have been more about getting stuff done around the house than writing but I’ve still managed to finish editing 13 chapters of book 1. I noticed a tendency to use italics too much so I’m taking this opportunity to trim those out a bit. Started chapter 19 in book 2 as well. Only got about two pages down before I realized some things had to change. First off, the book is pretty much done as far as the story is concerned. Some elements will have to wait for book three. This will be good though since it means I can spend quite a bit more time developing them in the next book. What I’ve put down for chapter 19 will probably end up being the epilogue and chapter 18 will be greatly expanded and split. What I realized is that the confrontation in chapter 18 is really part of the climax of this book. I hadn’t planned it that way but it’s how it worked out. There’s about one to two more chapters worth of story that will come out from this change and then book 2 will be done. Pretty damn excited about that as this book seemed to drag a lot more than my first.

Wrote out the basic bits of these last two chapters. Sometimes it really helps me to brain storm with a pen and paper. I also keep all of my notes on paper as well. As much as I love computers and modern technology the ease of having a notebook I can quickly flip through for reference when I’m working on my laptop can’t be beat.

The last bit that is exciting is that my office is just about done. I managed to put up five coats of the white board paint so I’ll have a huge area to work with. It takes three days to cure which means tomorrow I can technically start using it. I’ll wait until Sunday just to be sure though. Plus I need to get some light in there. Something a little less glaring than the overhead light anyway. The rest of the house is really coming along as well. It’s a relief to finally see so much progress in so many places. As for book 2, I may end up pushing these last two chapters out pretty quickly since I’m super excited and I want to be done with it. Time will tell.

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(Re) Editing Turns Out to be Fun. For Realsies.

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I’ve definitely been dreading this whole re-editing process because it means a whole lot of tedious work. So today I put it off as long as I could until about 30 minutes ago. Yet I’m already done with three more chapters and I’m kinda speed reading my book at the same time. Unexpectedly, I like it too. I’m enjoying my own book. Who knew? I definitely didn’t want to see it for awhile after I got it published back in January mostly because I was super sick of it. You can only spend so much time on the same thing before it gets boring and annoying after all. Now though I’m seeing it with fresh eyes. And I like it. I still don’t think it’s the best thing ever. Far from it, but I like it again. That’s definitely heartening. I can also see where my second book is better than this one. That’s a real boost to my motivation. Book one was definitely the prototype. No better than a beta. Now I’m extra anxious to finish this first trilogy so I can make the first book free.

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Progress

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I’m up to Chapter 18 now. The main character just met his love interest’s father for the first time. It was a brief encounter but fun. For me anyway. I thought I was closer to the end of the story for this book than I really am but it turns out there’s still a bit more to go before we reach the climax. That will likely put this book at almost exactly the same size as the last. Not really my intent but pretty cool regardless. I’m very ready for this book to be done as it’s taken me much longer than I wanted. Some of the delay was definitely life related but the rest can be chalked up to pure old laziness and letting my inner critic get the best of me.

My office/work room is coming along slowly. I’m prepping the wall for the white board treatment. It’s not nearly as smooth as I would like it to be. It was definitely painted with a mild form of stucco at some point. I freaking hate stucco. It’s not attractive and I always manage to bump into it and hurt myself. Thankfully this stuff has either worn down or been painted over so many times the wall is mostly flat. I’m hoping this next coat will make it even smoother. From the reviews I’ve read the best surfaces are flat as you can get it. This may end up as a failed experiment but hopefully not. It would be awesome to have most of a wall as a scratch board. Plus the other wall for my over-sized calendar.

Of course the most exciting bit right now is almost being done with book 2. That will mean being two thirds done with my very first trilogy. It will also mean being able to write something else. Probably a couple of somethings since I have some short story ideas I really want to get down. All in good time though.

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He’s heating up!

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Just finished up Chapter 9 of Induction. Finally. Things are more chaotic that usual as we are preparing to move. I did some figuring and realized that counting this one, I have moved a total of 17 times in the past 16 years. No wonder I’m ready to stay in one place for awhile! Hopefully this next move will be the last for a year or two. It certainly won’t be the last until we’re in a position to buy. Rent really is like throwing money away with nothing to show for it. Still, gotta have a home.

Chapter 9 was tough to write for me. Things came to a head for Stephen with the guy who has been messing with him. I actually finished the encounter last week but I really didn’t like it. The whole thing felt too brief and it was definitely not serious enough. This encounter brings some of the changes Stephen has gone through since he was attacked and is supposed to push him into the world of the Shroud. I didn’t really have to re-write it so much as enhance what was already there. I liked how it started and ended, it was the fight itself that needed some work. This should be the catalyst for things to really pick up. I’m looking forward to finding out what happens next. 🙂

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Conversations in my Head

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At some point many years ago I thought that perhaps I had some potential as a writer. I didn’t know how much (I still don’t for that matter), but I thought that maybe, just maybe, I could do this some day. I realized this because of my daydreams. At times they are incredibly vivid. I have whole conversations either with myself or some imagined person. Tonight is no exception. I managed to get about 1k words done on my book (yay!) and I was taking a break to read some of Dean Wesley Smith’s ‘Killing the 10 Sacred Cows of Publishing’. I only got through a couple of pages. Part of that is I’m pretty tired now, but the rest was because I started daydreaming. Mr. Smith was talking about his time as an editor, which made me wonder what it would be like to be a new editor?

I suddenly found myself being introduced to my new desk and office. My computer had a three monitor setup (one monitor is so very limiting after all) and a marginally comfortable chair. I was ready to get down to business. Being a new editor though, I was only given a short story to work on. Just a couple of pages. I asked about the deadline and they said by the end of the day was fine. Man, already I was bored. (I’d been editing professional writing for government purposes for the past four years or so, until the layoff.) Then I was having a conversation with my boss about just how in-depth they wanted me to go on the edit. Technical only for grammar, spelling, and the like? Or a deep dive into the guts of the story itself? Or both? 🙂

It was a fun little daydream. Very vivid. When I’m really into my book, that’s how I see the scenes I’m working on. It runs through my head like a movie in slow-motion, or just very short bursts that rewind constantly. Tons of tiny loops until I’ve laid down the scene and action to my liking. Those are the best times. I’m too into the scene in my head to worry about how much I might be sucking at putting it down in words. It’s always easier to write when your inner critic can’t interfere.